Leah Speer
posted in Mom Stories
You can see that 2nd pink line, right? I mean, it’s there…isn’t it? Can you tweak it for me? Anyone???
Just two weeks prior to examining at that stick, all by chance, I was starting the dreaded two week wait (TWW). Or maybe it’s not dreadful at all…it’s exciting; two weeks of wonder and hope. Even if baby-making wass making me crazy, I was so focused on the possibility of another baby, all of my other worries and cares were gone those two weeks. I was deliriously happy!
As many of those in the two week wait like to say, “It ain’t over until AF sings.” Ain’t that the truth. Since I’ve just recovered from my TWW obsession, I feel most comfortable writing in pregnancy and fertility acronyms. ***For a list of pregnancy and fertility acronyms, please go to the end of this post.***
We weren’t even trying for a baby this month. We’d taken several months off of really trying. Yet, our impromptu “dance” just so happened on Halloween after our little fireman and monster truck driver went to bed. I changed out of my Lady Gaga getup and he his Superman. It just so happen to be the day when my Maybe Baby app answer to its question Baby Today? was a YES with GIRL as an extra bonus. That night, I knew. I just knew we had made a baby.
So the next day, my preoccupation to confirm I was indeed pregnant began. I scoured pages and pages of online forums where women posted their symptoms–by day–until they got their positive pregnancy test.
I, too, started tracking my DPO symptoms.
DPO 1 – Bloated, had a dream of a baby girl & umbilical cord – well, obviously, I was dreaming of a little baby girl…I had baby on my mind all weekend. And, honestly, I have crazy dreams all of the time, not just when I was pregnant. The bloated thing…anything to do with the Mexican dinner I had the night before???
DPO 2 – Twinge in lower left side of belly button, pelvic pressure in the evening and middle of the night, and oh so bloated. Of course, I realize this is all really really early on, but I was in it to document it all and I did. This was probably the most attention I’d ever given my body in my entire life. Every twinge and twang, I noticed.
The next few days looked very similar to day 2 with the lower abdominal twinges and the bloat.
Then on 8 DPO, my boobs starting feeling a little tingly and sore on the sides. Hmm, I thought. Usually PMS they’re really sore and never feel tingly. Gotta be a sign!
And for every tingle or shoot of feeling that darted across my breasts that following week, it was a sure fire sign!
At 9 DPO, I documented that my broccoli (which I adore) tasted like chemicals. Sign!
10 DPO – Gassy, BBS slightly sore, slight cramping and itchy tummy. At lunch with a friend that day, I was bursting at the seams wanting to shout it out to her. Smartly, I waited.
11 DPO – Hot flashes, sore throat and a stuffy nose. Things I’ve seen all over these DPO/BFP boards. I was getting excited and deciding the different ways I’d tell my husband and maybe my family at Christmas. Exciting!! (For the record, I found out a few days later I had the early stages of pneumonia following a cold.)
12 DPO – Implantation bleeding? I’m spotting for sure. My period is pretty regular, so it. must. be. And all day I was dog tired!
13 DPO – Bleeding is pretty regular now, but maroon in color. BBS still feel very heavy and I could swear all the tingling is the exact same feeling as the let-down reflex I remembered from breastfeeding. So, I spend the day searching the boards for implantation bleeding color and amount and tingling breasts.
14 DPO – Sunday, test day. I POAS and negative. But, I could swear I could see a hint of that 2nd line. So I didn’t lose hope. Later that morning, my family and I went to church. I sat there and prayed to God I was pregnant and the sermon that followed just happened to be about hope and faith. Ahhhh!!! I’m still in the race, I decided, remembering those oh so wise words, “it ain’t over til AF.” And clearly the light bleeding from the last two days, two days before I was supposed to start, couldn’t have been AF. Could it? Have faith, I reminded myself!
16 DPO – No more spotting. No more cramps. But, with a cool breeze, my BBS do tingle still. I test again, this time with a digital that clearly shouted out to me “NOT PREGNANT” you crazy lady!
So, I came to terms with the fact I wasn’t going to be pregnant again and have the joy of feeling a wee one kicking inside of me. I realized through this TWW, how badly I really do want another baby. All of it. The pregnancy, the baby, the 3rd child, the extra cost, and all of the love. I do want it. So, I took control of my mind and remembered I get to try for a baby in less that two weeks. And then I’d get another TWW…another two weeks of faith and hope.
If you’re going through repetitive TWW, or even you’re experiencing your first–hold on to that hope with every part of your being. Remember, if you get a BFN, have faith, there’s always next month!
Have you ever been so excited to have a baby that you tricked yourself into thinking you were pregnant?
Pregnancy and Fertility Acronyms
- AF – Aunt Flow (your period; menses)
- BFN – Big Fat Negative (Negative Pregnancy Test)
- BFP – Big Fat Positive (Positive Pregnancy Test)
- CM – Cervical Mucus
- DPO – Days Past Ovulation
- DTD – Doing the Dance, sex
- OPK – Ovulation Predictor Kit
- POAS – Peed on a stick
- TTC – Trying To Conceive
- TWW – Two Week-Wait (the waiting period between ovulation and your period)
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